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Why I Don’t Ask For Donations

The false teachers of Christianity deceitfully claim the tithe that Yahuah ONLY gave to the Levites to support them. The Re-Newed Testament/Covenant Scripture make no instruction on tithing because it should be OBVIOUS that the Levital priesthood was a “type and shadow” of the Messiah that was to come that would become our High Priest and ultimate blood sacrifice for sin. When Yahu’sha our Messiah finished the work of Atonement for our sins it brought an OFFICIAL END TO THE LEVITICAL PRIESTHOOD and those tithes were NOT directed to go anywhere else in Scripture. Even the first fruits offering fulfilled by Yahu’sha so that is no longer valid. If you want to financially support through a donation to a ministry who is preaching the “If you love me, keep my Commandments” that Yahuah in the flesh as Messiah Yahu’sha commanded us then then you are doing a correct thing. Also, we are to bless Israel. You can bless the Jews and Israel by donating directly to the Israel National Food Bank. Don’t donate or give tithes to these television money grubbers who are living off your donations and tithes that you give in error. They live in resplendent luxury. Investigate these false teachers live, it’s easy online. Anyone teaching that we do not have to keep the Law as Yahu’sha said, “The truth is not in him”. Only support the true Wise Virgin teachers of truth who teach the true Holy/Kodesh names and never use the pagan deity false names that actually invoke Satan as they are the Foolish Virgins that are destined for the Lake of Fire if they do not fill their empty lamps with truth before they die or the time of the second coming rapture that takes place after the select “thief in the night” rapture. The redeemed Foolish Virgin rapture will take place at the end of the Tribulation when Yahu’sha comes in the clouds of great glory and “Every eye shall see him” and “They will look upon the One they pierced and they will mourn for Him as one morns for an Only Son.”

I depend on God to supply all my needs, not other people. Short and sweet huh? I’ve received some nice gifts over the years for the support of my ministry, but I don’t hawk any outrageously overpriced products like Mystery Babylon does to support their organizations. If Yahuah has put it on someone’s heart that they are to support my ministry with a blessing of financial assistance then that is on them and I’m not allowed to refuse a blessing, but I will never ask for any financial support and well never sell any products, or never offer a free gift just to get you on a mailing list where once I have your name and address I will send you regular and endless mail begging for money like the false teachers of the Foolish Virgin masses do.

I would suggest you donate to charities like helping your local war veterans of which there are various organizations I have a neighbor that is a war veteran that our United States government will not pay for nursing home care that he needs because he can’t even get out of bed but maybe twice a day to use the facilities and eat. I am horrified by this and I’m working on doing something to stop this abuse of our War Veterans. There are many charities that help to feed the starving people around the world, Saint Judes Childrens Hospital, the Natural Law Defense fund, etc., etc.

I wouldn’t mind being rich, but I’m not gonna do it by fleecing the flock like the false prophets and wolves in sheeps clothing do so they can live in a mansion and drive fancy cars. and have fine works priceless art in their home like has been documented about false teacher Dr. Joyce Meyers who lives in resplendent luxury when the “J-Esus” she preaches had no place to lay his head. Yahusha HaMoshiach had nice clothing, but that was about it. No cars, no jewels, no pool attached to a mansion. He was a humble frum Jew. You should try it sometime.

The Father has sent some my way that were moved by His spirit to meet certain ministry financial needs, and lodging, and other basic necessities of my life, but that, as I said was because they were moved by the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit) to do so. Again, my ministry never asks for donations, support, and I do not sell the gospel or products for money. Freely I have been given and freely I give to you.

Sincerely,

Yosef Ben David

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Yosef Yahudah ben David’s Bio

My maternal great grandmother, Emma Rachel Gaylord-Horstmann who passed when I was young was the daughter of Charles Judah Gaylord, Jr. born in 1852, the result of my 3rd great grandfather fathering him with an Black African slave he owned by the name of Amanda Comee. That makes me 1/32nd Black. Great-great grandfather Gaylord was documented as Mulatto (as all first offspring of a White/Black union were branded. His children with White Scottish great-great grandmother Susannah Morrison-Gaylord were all documented as Black as was the custom in those times in the post-slavery period in the USA where the One-Drop Rule was enforced in the census documentation done every 10 years in the United States up until the 1920 census when my grandmother and her siblings were all documented as White. Although the children of great grandmother Emma Rachel Horstmann’s were 1/8th Black, and were never documented as such, but instead White that did not mean the people of the area would ever forget the Black ancestry.

My grandmother Mary Katherine Horstmann recalls when she was a girl shortly after the birth of the baby of the family, Henry Horstmann, Jr. their log cabin home in Goshen, Kentucky burned to the ground. She recalls her dad wrapping baby Henry in a blanket and dropping him to the safety of his mother’s arms from the upstairs window before he fled the burning cabin. That was my grandmother’s version of the story I’d always heard, but her sister Irene Horstmann-Kelley had a different story to tell about the night their family cabin burned to the ground.

My mother went through five marriages, my father being her second divorce in 1963 before I was born in April 1964.

To be continued….

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My Walk with YHWH

Gut Shabbes 144,000. Ah yes, the Remnant! The Remnant Bride of Yahusha HaMoshiach Son of God, Son of King David. How was your Saturday (not Sunday) Sabbath Day of Rest commanded by our Abba Father YHWH? Blessed be the name of Yahusha, the Name above all names, no OTHER name, the ONLY name given to mankind, under which we must be saved though repentance of sin’s and full Biblical Mikvah water baptism in the that name, the name of Yahusha, not the pagan deity Zeus inspired J.E.S.U.S, the name the Whore/Harlot fake new system uses… COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE before it’s too late. In Yahusha’s name I pray, Omein. Just a note about the wicked one’s who changed THE NAME ABOVE ALL OTHER NAMES (that even means the name Yahusha is above the root of His name, YHWH, but fear not because in the end it’s all really the same name like all the other names of God… Yahusha simply means God is my Salvation/Deliverer. Amen. Ah, but yes, look and see! It is written where they first conspired to abolish the use of His scared name in the Kodesh Hebrew tongue: Acts 4:17 “But lest it may be spread further among the Am Yisroel, let us warn them no longer to speak to any man b’shem hazeh (this name). And, having summoned them, they commanded them not to say drashot or shiurim b’shem Yahusha/Yeshua [Zech 6:11-12; Ezra 3:8] at all.”

Oh for shame right? This was the beginning of the Satanic attack on the ONLY name that can be used to wash away sins. I’m not the judge, but I tell you the truth in love… If you got baptised in the fake name of Jesus then you haven’t followed His commandment to be baptized in the ONLY Name, no Other Name, given to us by which we must be saved. You’ve been deceived and how blinded must you be to not understand you have been lead astray by false teachers who were victims of false teachings themselves. The is no place to condemn any flawed human in my humble opinion, but to put the blame on Satan and him alone who began this whole business of putting a stop to anybody speaking/pronouncing the sacred and Holy name of God. Now doesn’t the Scripture that says they have become a synagogue of Satan sound fitting. Better get baptised in the Name that has POWER and dump that religion that has a form of Godliness, but rejects the POWER and authority of God’s commandments. Yahusha’s last pleading with His Talmudim was, “If you love me keep my commandments”. While I’m at it, he also told His Talmudim to “Do this in remembrance of me.” Make sure you use unleavened bread for this remembrance as Yahusha with without sin (leaven). Also make sure you do the same with the “new wine” which was actually fresh squeezed grape juice having not had a chance for an fermentation to take place which is caused by leaven/yeast/sin.

My mother was an unbeliever who said, “Man wrote the Bible”. I was not there before her death because she didn’t want me there. She even wrote me and one of my older half brother’s out of her Will. This is the parent I suffered under as a child, but as a mentally unstable alcoholic she did have a few moments when she wasn’t abusive. One of those moments was when I was 8-years-old and we were at a Walden’s Books in a shopping mall and God, who foreknew me and predestined me, had His hand upon me and inspired me to have my own copy of The Childrens Bible. The Children’s Bible is actually sitting under my laptop right now as I type. My laptop overheats so it makes my laptop cooler as my fingers blaze a trail for God 🙂 The Children’s Bible also creates a firm foundation for the laptop and what I’m writing….. WORD!

I remember reading each condensed Bible story from Genesis to Revelation and placing four-leafed clovers I found in the front yard of my mother’s Louisville, Kentucky home I partially grew up in. My real home was my maternal grandmother’s house about 30 miles away in the town of LaGrange, not far from Goshen, Kentucky where my family came from. I always found it interesting Goshen was where the Hebrew slaves lived in Egypt to keep themselves separate from the Egyptians. My ancestors come from slaves as my 3rd great grandfather took as his son the child he sired, my great-great grandfather Charles Gaylord, Jr. who was half Black making me 1/32d Black. If the One-Drop-Rule was still being enforced in post-slavery America even though I pass for White I’d still be documented as Black or Negro on this 2020 census like my great grandma was and all her siblings were. Great grandma Emma Rachel Gaylord-Horstmann’s 14 children didn’t get documented as Black/Negro after 1910. I guess being 1/8 Black ends the one-drop rule? I don’t know….

TO BE CONTINUED…

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Lew and Phyllis White of www.TorahZone.net

In the year 2000 YHWH was bringing me out of the Catholic/Protestant Babylonian Whore/Harlot daughters lawless and fake name church world after being a member there as a member of the United Pentecostal Church for 22 years (since age 18), I experienced “knowledge shall be increased” on the Internet when I found Lew and Phyllis White’s Ministry, and read his book, Fossilized Customs, and later distributed copies to every member of my church who weren’t scared to take one out of my hand. I placed them on my local library shelves and on the shelves of local bookstores because I knew the contents to be the truth of YHWH and the unmasking of the Babylonian Catholic Whore system and her Harlot daughters, all the protestant church’s who forsake God’s commandments and use the Roman fake news satanic lie Jesus name that has no power unto salvation (Acts 2:38 and Acts 4:11). I am not sure how Yahusha will judge the individuals who deny the only name by which we must be saved or the Father’s name, so I’m not even gonna go there and be judgemental of any of them. All I know is I was horrified and convicted to get re-baptised in the real name of the Savior Yahusha just to be sure my sins were forgiven. I really want to be with Yahusha for eternity, not sent to the Lake of Fire because I hated his refused His real and and refused to follow His commandments.

I’m very thankful for Lew and Phyllis White who are two of the great teachers of the Remnant “Wise Virgin Bride” preparing for Yahusha’s “thief in the night rapture”, not to be confused with the end of the Tribulation 2nd coming when all eyes shall see Him coming in the clouds of glory, and the angels as He arrives at the Mount of Olives–this is the resurrection that Paul spoke of, “For we shall not all sleep, but in the twinkling of an eye”, you know the verse…. The resurrection of bodies of all who died and were saved and then this will be the 2nd rapture where any of the “Foolish Virgins” filled their lamps with the Truth of Torah keeping and honoring the Holy/Kodesh Name of the Father Yahuah and His Son Yahusha instead of invoking the demonic names of false satanic deities by pronouncing their names like god/gad/gott/lord and jesus/iesous/esus. It’s truly showdown time. As soon as the Trump Israel/Palestian peace deal is signed the last 7-year tribulation begins. Today is the day of salvation. Don’t put it off. Be a “Wise Virgin” that is lifted up as His Bride and carried to the wedding and marriage supper of the Lamb! Don’t be a Foolish Virgin that must suffer the horror of the Tribulation and have wait for His 2nd Coming rapture just before He scorches the earth with probably what could be the asteroid Apophis which NASA said in 2004 that will hit our planet on April 13, 2029–the Book of Revelation, I believe, defines this asteroid as “Wormwood” and it looks like it will hit the earth in the Pacific ocean off the coast of California and Mexico. It’s four football fields in size and is going to land on the largest volcanic area of the world and obviously also cause the San Andreas Earthquake faultline to probably cause all of California to break off and since in the Ocean. The book of revelation says it will poison 1/3 of the earths water. NASA has since tried to walk back their prediction, but president Trump is preparing “Space Force” to try to intercept it and destroy is with a nuclear bomb in space before it hits us. Good luck with that lol

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Who is Jewish

There are those are Jewish by ancestral lineage. Back in the day Judaism traced your Jewishness strictly by your paternal line, but after Messiah Yahusha’s death and resurrection they began going by your maternal line.

Unless a DNA test confirms that I genetically am Jewish, until then I am Jew-ish by faith in the God of Avraham. I grew up in the United Pentecostal Church where their standards, at least for their female dress code are very much like that of Orthodox Jewish women so I’m glad of that because it made my transition from the Whore/Harlot system of a false Christ to Judaic faith, the faith of the Jew named Yahusha ben Yosef, a lot easier not having to buy a whole new closet of clothes. Wearing a sheitel or a snood to cover my natural hair did take some getting used to. lol I digress.

Whether you are born Jewish due to genetics, or your soul is Jewish by reincarnation and you convert, or if you are like me, an assumed gentile who lives as if I were an Orthodox Jew does not mean I’m one of those whom it is written, “Those who say they are Jews and are not”. I’m gloriously happy being what I am, whatever God made me to be and through faith I feel I am grafted into the true vine of the chosen people through my faith in God, my adherence (as best as possible) to the 613 commandments of the Torah, even though some may say I only have to keep the Noachide Laws being a gentile believer come to the faith.

It’s all good. Baruch HaShem (The Name) of the Father who art in Heaven who has made away for every soul to become righteous in His eyes and partake of His loveliness. The Kingdom of God in heaven can be brought down to earth if want it. “They Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in Shomayim (Heaven). Abba, let this be my prayer to my reader that they know whether born Jew or not they are loved and welcomed by you into the Kingdom. Come quickly Yahusha HaMoshiach who left as a suffering servant and will return as King! In Yahusha’s name I pray. Omein.

It’s showdown time with God! To fulfill prophecy the Trump Israel/Palestine peace agreement when signed will begin the last 7 years known as the Tribulation.

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Created in The Image of God

I believe we all know that in the Jewish Scriptures, in the Book of Genesis, is where we get the story of God creating man in His image, right?

Now, as I always tell people, I am not a spoon feeder. That means that in order to keep this teaching short and sweet I don’t quote the Scripture source all the time, but I expect you to have enough desire to fact check for yourself. That said, let’s continue…

The book of Genesis (Bereishit in Hebrew), we are told how God created us humans. He created the male first and then the female. When He made the man it says that man was made in his image. There is nothing in God that is not replicated in His creation. Man being made in His image meaning, man has both the attributes of male and female in one body, just like God has both of the divine attributes in one body, if I can say, so to speak that God has a body.

Most of you reading this article did go to school and had a biology class that taught you about male and female chromosomes, right? The male has an XY chromosome pattern and the female is XX. I happen to be a rare mixture of both sexes having been blessed with a medical condition called XY/XO Mosaicism. In coarse language, I was born a hermaphrodite. My mother was so horrified that she told them to take me away after I was born and she did not want to see me again. She was going to give me up for adoption, but my grandmother intervened and took me home from the hospital and cared for me for the first 3 months of my life till my mother finally calmed down and took me back.

Five months later at 8 months of age in December of 1964 I underwent surgery to fix my body to appear totally male. My pseudo-vagina with no vaginal canal, or womb was cut out and sealed up after they brought down my undescended gonads of which one had developed into a normal testicle, but the other one had developed into a hybrid of an ovary and and testicle called an ovo-testis. Because my urinary tract had developed normally the penis so I could use it for urination that was the decision maker for fixing me to be male. Keep my personal medical history in mind as you read further.

So, you understand that females have two XX chromosomes and men have just only one X paired to a Y chromosome. Until the fetus goes through what is known as the period of differentiation at 6-8 weeks all developing babies appear as female. If the chromosome pattern is XX the baby continues to develop as female, but if the chromosome pattern is XY then the female default body begins to differentiate and the clitoris grows larger into the eventual penis and the gonadal tissue develops into testicles instead of ovaries. All men begin life with a female body and then, in the womb, they differentiate from the female default body and start developing a male body. It’s like every male human on this planet begins life as female and then has in the womb by virtue of the chromosomal blueprint that dictates what sex the female default fetus will become.

Now, if God made man (males) in His image with the divine attributes of male and female then what image did God make woman in? Bereishit (Genesis) tells us that God took one of man’s sides (rib is a mistranslation of the Hebrew) and formed the woman from it. To me, it sounds like God took the one “side” of the XY chromosome pattern, taking only the female X chromosome from the man he’d created and multiplied it like the loaves and fishes and woman was created.

So, my friend, you see every man is made in the image of God with both male and female attributes or chromosomes. There is a stumbling block for the Christian churches, but it’s been common knowledge in the Judaism of Yeshua the Messiah forever. Christians will say that God only made two sexes, male and female. Lori Lamb of Daystar Ministries has promoted this false teaching in opposition to the thousands of children born as I was, as a third sex medically called “Intersex”, a hermaphrodite with an XY/X0 chromosome pattern with both male and female genitalia. I messaged Joni Lamb personally on Facebook to have her invite me and my Rabbi onto her her Table Talk program to give the Jewish side of the story of creation which would correct her false teaching, but I have not heard back from her.

Because Joni Lamb has also had a series of shows with gays, lesbians, and transgenders I want to teach her and her audience from Judaism how us Jews believe that homosexuality and transgenderism is a reincarnation issue. Most people have no clue that reincarnation is foundational to Judaism. At least twice in the New Testament *Jesus taught on reincarnation. It’s right there in the King James in red letters. “Red letters” mean’s those are the words of *Jesus. I’ve also called Dr. Joyce Myers on the carpet for not knowing that *Jesus taught reincarnation. Homosexual men and the transgendered folk are experiencing a reincarnation bleedover from a most recent past life as a woman. This is Judaism 101, but the anti-Jewish church world is clueless. They are coming along in these Last Days, but still Yeshua says, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE”.

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The Homosexual and Transgendered Lifestyle

Warning: This prophetic message is going to radically change your entire understanding of Judaism and Christianity. I have been called to rebuke the Babylonian Whore/Harlot (Catholic/Christian apostate system that wants to Satanically delete re-incarnation which is foundational to Judaism and therefore should be foundational to anti-Jewish Christianity too. Do you not like the sound of that? Don’t hate the messenger. I AM just one of YHWH/Yahusha the Mosiach’s last of the LAST DAYS prophets called to rebuke the falsehoods and doctrines of demons that Satan has fooled God’s Chosen People and the Apostate Babylonian Whore/Harlot religious system that sits upon 7 hills in Rome. Yahushu commanded, not asked, not pleaded, that those involved in those Lawless (Torahless) system, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE SO YOU DO NOT PARTAKE IN HER PUNISHMENTS!” Furthermore, Yahusha says, “Be very fearful of your decision to have a form of Godliness, but deny MY POWER of incarnation or your many reincarnations. If you claim to believe I am YHWH God incarnated (God became a man) then how do you not believe that re-incarnation is not foundational to Judaism and how can YOU, Oh, apostate Christian protestant Harlot daughters not see that I taught you re-incarnation in red letters in the gospels through my only begotten Son Yahusha? You can’t have Me as God Himself incarnated into flesh to be broken, and bruised, and impaled on a tree, cursed, and take all YOUR sins away through my blood unless I AM that I AM incarnated into flesh to become your Redeemer. Thus saith the LORD.” [end of prophetic message from Yahusha – 18 August 2020/28 Av 5780]

Beloved, of Yahuah, don’t you KNOW that for every single good thing that Yahuah has for His people that HaSatan (Satan, TheAversary of your soul) has a counterfeit for? If you do not know that yet then I AM brings you this Word of Yahuah now so you can loose yourself from the bondage, lies, and counterfeit versions of Judaism where Satan has deceived you out of your claim to your rightful and righteous place in the KINGDOM of Yahuah. Abba Yahuah has anointed me to be a shliach/sheliach (messenger) to a community of LGBT people whom I have had much lifetime experience with. My Abba wants to unveil how The Adversary (HaSatan) has beaten and battered you and confused you and hurt you to the point that YOU, a child of Yahuah, got pushed so far that you lost your first love. You developed a bad taste in your mouth for Religion in general and felt compelled to become *spiritual* and as a result leaned on your own understanding and created your own fanciful beliefs outside of the Word of Yahuah. Abba Alahim say’s, “Don’t do it! Come back to me. I love you. Allow me to open your eyes through my suffering servant and learn the key to your same-sex attractions– re-incarnation.”

First it was the Yahudim (Jews) who were contaminated in Babylonian exile and then much later a new version of the same old Satanic garbage was revived by pagan Rome to control the rapid rise of believers in Yahusha (incorrectly aka Yeshua aka Jesus) the Moshiach (Messiah) of Israel. This apostate Catholic Whore/protestant Harlot system saw hostile takeover as the only way to bring their Roman empire together under one Frankenstein religious system that incorporated paganism with Messianic Judaism. Did you know that the Nicean council decided from five pagan deity names to use Esous, a sound alike for Zeus to bring in all the pagans in they almost re-named Yahusha as Mithras the sun god. The names of Caesar and Krishna were also on their list. I cannot on my own be a judge and say if Yahusha will be merciful enough to accept a stained “Jesus name Harlot bride” with no oil in her lamp or not. I just can judge that. All I know is it scares me when Yahushua said, “Many will come to me in that day, the day of judgement (Yom HaDin) and many of the Whore/Harlot system will say, “Lord, Lord, didn’t we cast out demon’s in Jesus name and heal the sick in Jesus name”, but on that day I will tell them, “Go away from me you workers of iniquity (Lawlessness=saying we don’t have to keep all 613 commandments. Yahusha added one more commandment to the 613 the Jews keep, as He said, “Love one another as I have loved you”.

If you don’t obey Acts 2:38 that commands us to be water baptised in the one name above all others (Yahusha), the only name given to mankind by which we MUST be saved then I cannot say that Yahusha will consider your baptism and salvation valid. He will judge.

The Whore/Harlot has denied reincarnation that is foundational to the Judaism of Yahusha the Messiah (known to the Apostate Protestant Harlot church world and Babylonian Whore Catholic system as Jesus). The name Jesus was, and is, a pagan god replacement name “from the pit” as a pastor I once knew used to say. It was created along with an edited and altered version of the Jewish Believers in Messiah’s Scriptures/Gospels. Yahusha HaMoshiach says, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE!” –Revelation 18:4

I know those dealing with homosexuality and transgenderedism issues have been beaten and battered by the Babylonian Whore (includes Lawless Reform Judaism, Catholicism), and the Whore’s Harlot daughter’s (Apostate Protestant Harlot Church’s) false religious system that endorses iniquity (lawlessness, ignoring God’s Commandments), but you won’t find none of that treatment here. I do not consider myself a “Christian” because Christianity was an invention of pagan Rome (and Satan) who saw a way to revive the old Mystery Babylon system.

I came out of the United Pentecostal Church officially in 2001 after being a member since I was 18 (that’s 22 years). To be clear, I wasn’t born a Jew (at least to my genealogical research thus far), but I claim to be Jew-ish (cute, huh?) by faith and believe myself according to Yahusha HaMoshiach (known to xtians as Jesus), to be a grafted into the vine. My rabbi and others say I must have a Jewish soul. I haven’t researched the validity of that claim yet.

Judaism, the true church of the Almighty God and His Son, does not treat people dealing with homosexuality and transgenderism with disrespect. Some may say I have no right to speak on this issue since I’m not transgendered or homosexual, but let me tell you. Before I knew I was intersexed I had assumed I was dealing with the same things as the subject of this article. My ministry reaches out to these individuals to help them understand their true identity in God and what they are dealing with in their relationship with our Abba Father and His Son Yahusha. Many in the LGBT identity movement lost their true identity many years go after being hated and bludgeoned by the religious world , but if you still have faith in God, feeling forced out of and you became “spiritual”, let me tell you, if you are still a believer, your situation is not much different than any other believer. The Babylonian Whore/Harlot system that many (as in “Many will come to me in that day”) have been become victims of a Satanic system that has a form of Godliness, but they deny the power of the real gospel that they have tried to hide–the fact that reincarnation is true. Yahusha/Yeshua (aka Jesus) taught reincarnation!

For the false teachings from the Catholic/Christian Whore/Harlot system they will be judged and Scripture says they will burn the Whore with fire. Could the burning of churches be the fulfillment of God’s Word that “they will burn the Whore with fire”? Could burning the Whore refer to the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit) that will baptise them with fire and open their eyes to the truth so that as many as possible will COME OUT OF HER before it’s too late? Will Catholics and Christians be extended grace or will their souls go into the Lake of Fire? I cannot answer that at this time and I pass no judgements until King Moshiach Himself makes me a judge. Until I am made a judge I will minister in love without judgement. When I watched the Notre Dame Cathedral burn to the ground on television I just kept hearing, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE!”

Satan has lied to you little children. He has pushed a false identity upon you. He has worked hard to create an anti-messiah spirit in the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgendered community and formed a rebellious identity in you that has put a wedge between you and God. Instead of understanding your situation like the true Jewish/Gentile church, the one that existed in the time of the apostles, the devil created this hateful monstrosity out of Rome that preaches a false lawless religion without they KEY of reincarnation that Yahusha taught! Reincarnation is the KEY for the LGBT people to COME OUT for real, come out of her my people and know your true identity and take your place as a believer. By understanding that reincarnation bleed over from being a female in your last gilgul (that’s Hebrew for reincarnation) and the side effects of that are causing you confusion because the last reincarnation bleed-over effect tells you that you have the genuine feeling of emotional and sexual attachment to a sex that is physically like your own, but with the knowledge you are a female reincarnation bleed-over into now male body you do not have the KEY to unlock your path to putting sexual sin behind you. I know it will be a hard thing to give up the prideful homosexual identity you have embraced, but it’s all gonna be part of your testimony one day as you lay your crown before the feet of Moshiach. For some people healing is instantaneous, while others will struggle. Some are going to be like the story of the prodigal son. Some are going to lose everything while they cling to their faith like אִיּוֹב/’Iyyov (in English: Job) from the Book of Job in the Tanach (aka Old Testament).

Judaism has long known the cause of homosexuality and the transgendered lifestyle, but many do not want to want to listen to the Jews because they feel God doesn’t like them anymore because they executed Messiah, but that is another lie of Satan. The Satanic list of individual reasons why the Jews are hated world-wide by many are many, but I’ll list the the most common slurs, they are the killers of Christ, and they are very cheap and will try to “Jew you down”. So, if Jews have anything to say, nobody wants to listen. Well, I have listened because I do not think these things about the Jews because I embrace them as my own people because I understand myself as a non-Jewish born person to be a grafted in branch of Israel because my faith is the same as theirs thanks to being lead to spiritual truth through an ancient Jewish Orthodox Rabbi who lived nearly 2000 years ago. Funny how I chose to use the word “ancient” (Ancient of Days) to describe this Rabbi, but I let me continue….

So, you hate Jews and because they are Christ Killers and you hate the Christian Whore/Harlot system that has bludgeoned instead of understanding you and as a result you probably have already stopped reading this page, but in the rare chance you are still reading let me tell you this. You will finally understand the true cause of homosexuality and it’s bedfellow, transgenderedism if I can drum it into your head. Truth bears repeating.

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The Black Lives Matter Matter

I pass easily for White, but then again why shouldn’t I? I am not half Black, nor 1/4th Black, nor 1/8th, or 1/16th, but I am 1/32nd Black as inherited from my maternal 3rd great grandmother Amanda Comee who was an enslaved African in Louisville, Kentucky in 1852 when she gave birth to my great-great grandfather Charles Judah Gaylord, Jr. fathered by her owner Charles Gaylord Sr.my 3rd great grandfather.

My first cousin 2x removed who I call Aunt Betty had the privilege of knowing her great-great grandmother, who was my mother’s mother. I was only 2 years old when she passed and I don’t consciously remember her.

I sure wish I could have known my great-great grandmother and grandfather, but they were already long gone by several decades by the time I was born. I just find the thought of it all amazing my great-great grandfather was was legally born an enslaved African. Through ancestry.com I was able to be linked to through DNA to cousins who look fully and unmistakenly African Black. They were the DNA that dispelled all family rumors that we had Native American blood which was a lie to cover the truth of us being part Black. In the Bible Father Abraham’s wife/concubine Keturah was a “woman of color”. Moses took an Ethiopian Black Cushite wife. King David had a child with Bathsheba so many, but no all of the African Black race of people are genetically Jews.

The child of a slave and my 3rd great grandfather Charles Gaylord was born looking White enough that he was raised as his son. Here’s a photo of my great-great grandpa not long before his death at age 41. He was a farmer in the sun all day and his skin darkened a lot. I have gotten nearly black in the sun during my tanning days. Relatives say his skin was much lighter when he was born and that was a reason why my great-great-great grandfather took him and raised him as his son. My 1st cousin Eddie McCrocklin looks so much like him enough to be his son.

After his death his wife, my Scottish maternal great-great grandmother (Hello Clan Morrison!) Susannah Mary Morrison was left almost penniless and lived out the remainder of her days on a shanty boat at the mouth of the Little Cypress Creek, in Little Cypress, Kentucky near Paducah where one of her son’s, Cash Gaylord, lived. Grandma Gaylord died from malaria. This is her photo:

Oh those huge farmer woman hands!

How my great-great grandmother Gaylord must have suffered in a post-slavery America with a husband who obviously was part Negro (sic). All of their children were listed as Black in the census entries for the family decade after decade. My great grandmother Emma Rachel Horstmann’s children somehow escaped being entered in the census as Black which was a bit of a miracle considering the One-Drop Rule that still considered her, my grandmother, and other siblings to be Negro even though my great grandmother was 1/4th and my grandmother was 1/8th. Even my mother was 1/16 and still considered Negro by the One-Drop Rule that my home State of Kentucky upheld. As late as the 1910-11 school year, Pike County Kentucky school trustee Edmond Belcher notified the guardian of Troy and Loucreta Mullins that the children could not attend the school for Whites because the Mullins children were “Colored” even though they looked White. The guardian sued Belcher. The trial judge of the Pike County Circuit Court found that the children had at least 1/16 Negro blood, wherefore considered Colored, and would not be allowed to attend the school for White children. The children’s guardian filed an appeal. The Court of Appeal of Kentucky concluded that Negro and White children were never meant to be educated in the same school, and moral and mental chaos were likely to occur if that were to change. And, any traceable amount of Negro blood in an individual required that the person be considered “Colored.” The injunction was denied and the judgment of the Pike County Circuit Court was affirmed. 

The census taker’s were always members of the community who would talk and make sure those who looked White were still persecuted as Black. I haven’t found a census where my Grandmother and Mother were documented to be Black.

My great grandmother didn’t look very Black even though she had 1/4th Negro blood.

Emma Rachel Gaylord-Horstmann

My grandmother didn’t look too Black at 1/8th either.

Mary Katherine Horstmann-Hall-Washburn

My mother is considered “Colored” by the One-Drop Rule with 1/16th Negro blood.

My mother, Virginia Lee Hall

I have a 3rd cousin named Mattie Davis who looks very Black because her mother, my 2nd cousin became pregnant by a Black man. My cousin Mattie is an angry young woman and rightfully so. My cousin gave her up for adoption because she came out looking Black. My niece and I found Mattie on Ancestry.com and she said some rather rude things to me because she’s so sensitive about her level of Blackness and doesn’t treat her bio family who is less Black than her very nice. She has a lot of anger about being adopted out and I can’t help that. She does look like my cousin.

Mattie Davis

I imagine my mother knew about her Black ancestry, but never spoke a word to me about it and my grandmother never wanted to talk about her mother’s people.

My mother is 1/16 Negro blood and that makes my Negro blood content 1/32nd. I wonder if the racists would still consider me “Colored” under the One-Drop Rule? I guess I’d find out if it was still the early 1900’s.

My great-great grandpa Gaylord was legally born into slavery, but my 3rd great grandpa had a heart and embraced him as his son so he was what they called a “free Mulatto” back then.

I learned that my great grandma and grandpa were burned out of their cabin by racists when my grandmother was a girl. My grandmother told me that afterwards the family lived in a tent along the Ohio river that had a heating stove in it and it was cozy. She never spoke more about other places she lived growing up. After my grandmother married, grandpa Odes Hall her and their kids lived on the Buttorf Farm down Goshen Lane. My mother showed me the barn next to the house where she used to play as a girl and the tree along Goshen Lane where she take off and hide her shoes when she would walk up to the Goshen Store. I never talked to her and asked her if she grew up with racism. My family’s “dark” secret was not know to me while growing up and I only found out about my families Black ancestry when I grew close to my great aunt Irene while living in Indianapolis, Indian and going to church with her family. She filled me in a lot on how her mother and the family suffered from racists.

So, to close…do I believe and support the idea that Black lives matter? Yes, my Black family that I love matters. All Black lives matter as well as all the lives of all God’s children matter. As far as the Marxist lead organization Black Lives Matter, …..I cannot endorse an organization who’s leaders want to destroy American democracy and exchange it for socialistic Communism.

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On Being XY/XO Intersexed

It was the year 2004 when I revealed to my primary general practitioner physician that I had transitioned from male to female at age 19. I told him I was unhappy living as female and wanted his assistance with male hormones so I could return to living as a male. He asked me if I’d mind before we took any course of action if I’d allow him to do a chromosomal test on me so he could just get a baseline on what we were dealing with. I posed no objection. My results came back XY/XO. I was completely unaware I had an intersexed chromosome pattern as during my transition two decades earlier not one single health professional had suggested such a test. Personally, after what I’ve gone through I think every trans person should be required to take a chromosome test as part of normal standards of care for anyone who experiences feelings of gender dysphoria.

Finding out I was intersexed and not just your regular self-identified transgender person was a shock to my system at first. I wondered if I’d had this information as a teenager would it have changed the path I took? I shrugged it off thinking I should not waste time thinking about such now because that was the past and now I have to deal with my present decision to live as male again. I spoke with the South Dakota, USA geneticist Virginia Johnson who worked on my case. We did a few more tests over the next few years at her suggestion and she explained to me that it appeared that the extra X’s in my chromosomes were probably more populous when I was younger and transitioned and now later in life the number of extra X’s were decreasing. She said it would explain my first transition as well and my second transition. All I could do was listen to what the geneticist told me like all I could do is listen to what the doctors who monitored my teenage transition were telling me about being a transsexual.

Upon telling my grandmother about the chromosomal testing results she opened up and told me about my birth and how I had surgery 8 months after my birth to fix me from being a hermaphrodite to looking like a normal boy. While just calmly accepting this I thought of it the same way as the earlier revelation of my XY/XO chromosome pattern. None of the information mattered now and would not deter me from my desire to leave the disappointing male to female transgender life behind and return to living as male. Yes, I went through stages of shock, anger, grief, but stayed cool about it. What good would it do to get mad at my mother for not just leaving my body alone and allowing me to make my own decisions about my own body when I was old enough? What was done was done and it had no effect no who I was or how I felt now.

So, basically I transitioned again in 2005. This transition was rather simple this time as there wasn’t much to do but to get a haircut, a mastectomy, and take male hormones so my appearance would not be so soft like a female. At first it was just a haircut and binding my breasts so the basic transition from female to male only consisted of one hour. I had my haircut, came home and strapped down my breasts, and popped out to work in my garden without missing a beat. Of course I was in a mindset about being male, but nobody saw me as male at first. A lot of the towns folk and neighbors were shocked that I’d cut off my knee length beautiful hair and had a boyish looking haircut, but they had no idea yet what was really going on with me. I didn’t shrink back from being very open and talking about what I was doing as I felt like I was being unshackled. After my mastectomy in May of 2005 I felt so relieved when those huge triple D Jersey milk cow breasts were gone out of my way.

Fast forward after 15 years of living as a male and what have I learned? Can I say I lived “as” female and lived “as” male, but maybe I don’t know the luxury of knowing truly what either of the sexes feels like because I’ll always be somewhere in between the sexes? Is this understanding I have part of my journey as a soul? If all people where honest would they say they can feel the sex of their soul or would they say they don’t if they have a soul or even if a soul can have a sex? I know a lot of people have no believe in such a thing as a soul, much less a soul that can reincarnate into different sexed bodies many times. We all want truth, but will we ever get it? All we all can really do is say all we really know is we don’t know and live life as best we can by being kind, compassionate, loving and helpful to others.

Living as male takes a lot less maintenance so it is so much more convenient. I know what it’s like to live a life that is influenced by testosterone as well as a life influenced by estrogen. Both hormones have their merits, but testosterone makes one feel more aggressive and estrogen creates a more gentle state of being. In 2016 I decided that living as a bearded male that takes estrogen instead of testosterone created a nice balance. Without testosterone my face looks too pretty without a beard that says male to my audience.

Life is constantly an experience of change, self-inventory, and more change. Life is not stagnant. If it is then are you really living? Don’t be afraid to live, to take chances. You might learn something about yourself. Speaking of learning something about yourself I often ask myself what I’m learning or understanding when I watch a romantic movie. My heart always melts with joy when I see a happy couple acknowledging being in love with each other. I try to imagine who I might identify with when I see a man and a woman romantically entwined. I really don’t see myself as the man or the woman, but only a happy observer who always cries at weddings lol. All I know from my experience of living “as” male and “as” female, I am a gentle soul with a tender heart, who sometimes feels hurt by how harsh life’s experiences can be sometimes, but I gather strength and soldier on.

So, what am I? What wants to answer that? Who wants to judge me? Who wants to discriminate against me? Who wants to hate me? Does it matter that I’m an honest person? Does it matter that my life’s career was nursing because I wanted to help those who couldn’t help themselves? Does what kind of person I am outside of gender make any difference? Is it not good enough to be a person who has a moral compass? A person who is kind and compassionate towards others?

Maybe I will continue my thoughts on this subject again one day. I know those who are interested know how to set alerts for updates. Have a beautiful day and be safe in our new Coronavirus world. Remember the history of the Spanish flu that only took a few million lives on it’s first wave. When people let their guard down the 2nd wave killed 30-50 million. Wear your mask and be mindful till there is a vaccine.

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Who Are We?

Did you know me when I was he? Did you know me when I was she? Which lifetime was that?

What is the real us? Is our real person our soul that always prompts us to do what is right and good or are we our reactionary brains that cause us to be an unthoughtful species prone to violence?

Do you believe that it matters what sex your body is when your soul has no sex?

Most of problems in this world are caused by people who are don’t know who they are yet. Kids growing up in school don’t know who they are yet and aren’t they the most unmerciful at teasing and bullying others? Why do they act in such a way? One answer–they don’t know who they are and are afraid of anyone who is unafraid to be themselves.

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