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THE UNGODLY ORGANIZATION KNOWN AS “BLACK LIVES MATTER” IS NOT CONCERNED WITH BLACK LIVES, BUT IS OCCUPIED WITH A DESIRE TO MAKE THE AMERICAN UNITED STATES A COMMUNIST COUNTRY. THEY PROMOTE HOMOSEXUALITY – BOTH OF THE BLACK FEMALE FOUNDERS OF THE ORGANIZATION ARE COMMUNIST LESBIANS WHO ARE LIKE PIED PIPER’S LEADING OUR IMPRESSIONABLE AND IGNORANT GODLESS YOUTH DOWN THE HOMOSEXUAL PATH OS SPIRITUAL DEATH. THEY ALSO PROMOTE BLACK GENOCIDE THROUGH ABORTION ON DEMAND. WHICH BLACK LIVES MATTER LADIES??? ONLY THE LIVES THOSE WHO ARE OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE LESBIAN SEX WITH YOU OR ARE YOU ALSO IN LEAGUE WITH PEDOFILES IN CALIFORNIA TRYING TO LEGALIZED SEX WITH CHILDREN BY HAVING PEDOPHILIA DECLARED A DISABILTIY LIKE WAS DONE IN THE COUNTRY OF GREECE THEREBY MAKING PEDOPHILIA UNPUNISHABLE AS A CRIME?”

I pass easily for White, but I’m not. My great-great grandfather Charles Judah Gaylord, Jr. was a half Black half White mulatto born into slavery in 1852. As the 5th generation from my enslaved Negro ancestor I no longer have the obvious negro/noir/black skin color he had, but neither did any of his children including my great grandmother pictures below after him.

I am not half Black like my great-great grandfather, nor 1/4th Black like my great grandmother, nor 1/8th like my grandmother, or 1/16th like my mother, but I am 1/32nd Black which ain’t much, but for the racist and their One Drop Rule, I’m just as much a Negro as if I had no other race mixed in at all. For the sake of anti-racism I’m proud to own up to the One Drop Rule of the ugly racists who want to hate someone based on their color of skin. Why not hate because of something equally ridiculous like eye color or hair color?

My first cousin 2x removed who I call Auntie Betty had the privilege of knowing her grandmother, Emma Rachel Gaylord-Horstmann who was my grandmother’s mother. She sent me this lovely photograph of my grandmother of blessed memory. It’s a picture taken before she re-married after the death of my biological grandfather Odes Hall which by the way I just found out was Jewish the week of Sukkot 5781/2020 so after 20 years as living as a Jewish convert I now lost my convert status and observed my first Shabbos last week as someone who was born Jewish. Of course that’s just a misconception because I was keeping Shabbos every time as someone who was born Jewish, but didn’t know it. Now, to find out if possible which tribe of Israel I belong to!

Mary Katherine Horstmann-Hall

Getting back on track… Sorry, my brain easily forgets and can run off the rails quickly every since I suffered memory damage due to a bad medicine I was prescribed off label for some old age degenerative disk back pain.I was only 2 years old when she passed and I don’t consciously remember her. Had it not been for Aunt Betty and my grandmother’s sister Aunt Irene I would have never hardly known anything about Grandma Horstmann because my grandmother, the former Mary Katherine Horstmann was determined to not let our “dark” family secret get out that we were descended from enslaved Negros from Africa.

I sure wish I could have known my great-great grandmother and grandfather, but they were already long gone by several decades by the time I was born. I can only imagine what they must have went through have just been married as slavery was abolished. I’m very sure a half Caucasion/half Negro “Mulatto” and a Scottish White woman were the talk of the town. I just find the thought of it all amazing that my great-great grandfather was was legally born an enslaved African. I think their one saving grace was the Scottish were not seen by the racists as worthy of White privilege in early America. Many of them were brought to America as indentured servants like the Africans.

My mother and grandmother did their best to hide our heritage that they were obviously ashamed of. Perhaps it was more about fear because back in the day if you were found out to be part Negro that was worse than being pure Negro to the racists. I believe the stress of being found out to be part Negro drove my mother and grandmother to having a certain level of mental disorder. I think my grandmother handled it better than my mother who felt so far removed from being a Negress that she just lost her mind over it all. These poor people concerned so much with the physical when we are all foundationally beings of light without bodies of flesh and blood, or COLOR. Heaven knows with all that history and my own birth history of being born a hermaphrodite and not feeling fully committed to either sex I should be confused and have issues, but because I understand fully that the body is just a temporary illusion given to us for the use of eve

Through ancestry.com I was able to be linked to through DNA to Florida cousins who look fully and unmistakably African Black Negro. They are part of the DNA evidence that dispelled all family rumors that we had Native American blood which was a lie to cover the truth of us being part Negro. In the Bible Father Abraham’s wife/concubine Keturah was a “woman of color”. Moses took an Ethiopian Cushite wife and the Israelites didn’t much like it that he took up with a woman of color. King David had a child with Bathsheba so there are many, but not all of the African Black race of people are genetically Jews.

The child of a slave and my 3rd great grandfather Charles Gaylord was born looking White enough that he was raised as his son. Here’s a photo of my great-great grandpa not long before his death at age 41. He was a farmer in the sun all day and his skin darkened a lot. I have gotten nearly black in the sun during my tanning days. Relatives say his skin was much lighter when he was born and that was a reason why my great-great-great grandfather took him and raised him as his son. My 1st cousin Eddie McCrocklin looks so much like him enough to be his son.

After his death his wife, my Scottish maternal great-great grandmother (Hello Clan Morrison!) Susannah Mary Morrison was left almost penniless and lived out the remainder of her days on a shanty boat at the mouth of the Little Cypress Creek, in Little Cypress, Kentucky near Paducah where one of her son’s, Cash Gaylord, lived. Grandma Gaylord died from malaria. This is her photo:

Oh those huge farmer woman hands!

How my great-great grandmother Gaylord must have suffered in a post-slavery America with a husband who obviously was part Negro (sic). All of their children were listed as Black in the census entries for the family decade after decade. My great grandmother Emma Rachel Horstmann’s children somehow escaped being entered in the census as Black which was a bit of a miracle considering the One-Drop Rule that still considered her, my grandmother, and other siblings to be Negro even though my great grandmother was 1/4th and my grandmother was 1/8th. Even my mother was 1/16 and still considered Negro by the One-Drop Rule that my home State of Kentucky upheld. As late as the 1910-11 school year, Pike County Kentucky school trustee Edmond Belcher notified the guardian of Troy and Loucreta Mullins that the children could not attend the school for Whites because the Mullins children were “Colored” even though they looked White. The guardian sued Belcher. The trial judge of the Pike County Circuit Court found that the children had at least 1/16 Negro blood, wherefore considered Colored, and would not be allowed to attend the school for White children. The children’s guardian filed an appeal. The Court of Appeal of Kentucky concluded that Negro and White children were never meant to be educated in the same school, and moral and mental chaos were likely to occur if that were to change. And, any traceable amount of Negro blood in an individual required that the person be considered “Colored.” The injunction was denied and the judgment of the Pike County Circuit Court was affirmed. 

The census taker’s were always members of the community who would talk and make sure those who looked White were still persecuted as Black. I haven’t found a census where my Grandmother and Mother were documented to be Black.

My great grandmother didn’t look very Black even though she had 1/4th Negro blood.

Emma Rachel Gaylord-Horstmann

My grandmother didn’t look too Black at 1/8th either.

Mary Katherine Horstmann-Hall-Washburn

My mother is considered “Colored” by the One-Drop Rule with 1/16th Negro blood.

My mother, Virginia Lee Hall

One of my Horstmann 2nd cousins became pregnant by a Black man. Because the baby girl came out looking full on Negro my cousin rejected her own child and gave her up for adoption. The baby was taken in by a woman named Teresa Lynn Davis, a single woman and named my cousin Mattie Davis. Mattie is an angry young woman and rightfully so. Why wouldn’t she grow up angry that her mother gave her way like she was nothing and a father who was never concerned enough to be part of her life either. It’s no wonder she is struggling with homosexuality probably stemming from her deep anger towards men because her father never cared. My cousin gave her up for adoption because she came out looking Black and that is reflected in her interactions with myself and other of here biological “White” family she has had interactions with. She lets her hatred of her White mother who gave her away and the Black father who never cared color every relationship she has. It’s very sad. Her blood family has tried to reach out to her, but all she does it make all kinds of paranoid allegations against us. It’s really sad. We think her single mother is probably a lesbian too, or a man hater in the least for whatever personal reasons she has for not marrying and giving Mattie a father figure. Mattie has grown up into a very warped young woman, but hopefully, one day along with her education will come some wisdom and hopefully compassion for other’s and what they have gone through. She lets her anger and hatred for being abandoned for coming out Black, forgive the pun, color her world. I have other cousin’s who had Black father’s and they don’t act like her.

My niece and I found Mattie on Ancestry.com and she said some rather rude things. She’s so sensitive about her level of Blackness and doesn’t treat her bio family who is less Black than her very nice, to put it lightly. I could post all the nasty and threatening stuff she has written me here, but what good would that do? It would only make a girl her hates herself to hate herself and other’s more. As a medical professional in the field of psychology I can only hope she gets the help she needs or she is in for a lifetime of unhappiness. She has a lot of anger about being adopted out and I can’t help that. She does look like my cousin though. Too bad my lame cousin and her father could not have done the right thing and married and raised Mattie in a healthy home and maybe today she would not be suffering from depression and mental illness, or lesbianism. Mattie doesn’t seem like the type that would be lesbian due to classic reason’s, but her lesbian confusion does seem to primarily be born out of her adoptive mother’s promotion of the homosexual lifestyle Mattie’s anger towards her father. I think Mattie could easily be restored to her normal sexuality if she had just a bit of the right help with her issues.

“The sins of the father’s” the Scripture says will be passed down to the third and fourth generations”. Just an FYI, we are still in those third and fourth generations of the “father’s” who owned slaves in this country. I am of the 5th generation that ends the curse. I have reached out to this wayward cousin Mattie Davis with so much love and compassion. I have even reached out to her mother Teresa Lynn Davis. In my practice I’ve seen so many kids like Mattie who are just so angry at the world. They identify themselves with victim status and take the political side of the Democrats who made people like Mattie and my ancestors their victims in the first place. The Democrats are still fighting a war that never ended to keep Negro’s enslaved. They birthed the KKK who came and burned down my grandmother’s house and wanted to kill her mother “the Black Nigger Bitch” they called her the night they burned their home down. If it weren’t for the Rule family that were neighbors coming to the rescue with guns firing in the air to scare the KKK off none of us may have been here today to tell this story.

Mattie Davis

I imagine my mother knew about her Black ancestry, but never spoke a word to me about it and my grandmother never wanted to talk about her mother’s people.

My mother is 1/16 Negro blood and that makes my Negro blood content 1/32nd. I wonder if the racists would still consider me “Colored” under the One-Drop Rule? I guess I’d find out if it was still the early 1900’s.

My great-great grandpa Gaylord was legally born into slavery, but my 3rd great grandpa had a heart and embraced him as his son so he was what they called a “free Mulatto” back then.

I learned that my great grandma and grandpa were burned out of their cabin by racists when my grandmother was a girl. My grandmother told me that afterwards the family lived in a tent along the Ohio river that had a heating stove in it and it was cozy. She never spoke more about other places she lived growing up. After my grandmother married, grandpa Odes Hall her and their kids lived on the Buttorf Farm down Goshen Lane. My mother showed me the barn next to the house where she used to play as a girl and the tree along Goshen Lane where she take off and hide her shoes when she would walk up to the Goshen Store. I never talked to her and asked her if she grew up with racism. My family’s “dark” secret was not know to me while growing up and I only found out about my families Black ancestry when I grew close to my great aunt Irene while living in Indianapolis, Indian and going to church with her family. She filled me in a lot on how her mother and the family suffered from racists.

So, to close…do I believe and support the idea that Black lives matter? Yes, my Black family that I love matters. All Black lives matter as well as all the lives of all God’s children matter. As far as the Marxist lead organization Black Lives Matter, …..I cannot endorse an organization who’s leaders want to destroy American democracy and exchange it for socialistic Communism.